Mother Who Lost Six Babies to the Same Condition Shares Her Story
Though Joany Catingco lost six babies to the same rare condition, she's still holding on to hope that she'll become a mum one day...
It’s hard to imagine how someone could go through so much heartache, but still remain hopeful.
But Joany Catingco manages to do so and wants to inspire others to do the same by sharing her story.
“I got married when I was 23 years old,” she began, recalling how she was about 4 months pregnant then. “I had to gave birth that same the year, when I was only 7 months along.”
She welcomed her first baby, Maria Francesca Louise in December 2001 after an emergency C-section.
“Everything happened so fast. We were so happy to have a baby, but after I gave birth, my husband (Jhong) told me that the doctors are doing their best to revive my baby,” she recounted to theAsianparent. “I was really in shock because we were healthy and I was religiously doing what the doctors said even that time life was so hard.”
A fateful Christmas day
On Christmas day, her husband told her the sad news that they had lost their firstborn baby girl. According to Joany, their little one’s cause of death was initially identified as sepsis.
This was before they found out about the rare disorder, Autosomal Recessive Polycystic Kidney Disease (AKPKD), that was going to snatch their precious babies from them in the years to come.
“It hurt so bad that I couldn’t even bear to hear babies crying,” confided Joany.
Six years later, in 2007, they welcomed their son Sean Matthew to this world. In the months leading up to the birth, they prepared everything, wanting to make sure they have a healthy pregnancy and easy delivery. But on the 7th month of her pregnancy, their doctor told her that she needed to be admitted to hospital.
“I really didn’t know what was happening,” she recalls, adding how her husband couldn’t be by her side because he was working abroad as a seafarer at the time.
With her mum, dad, and siblings by her side, she received tragic news.
“The doctor dropped the bomb and told me that I have to choose whether to terminate my pregnancy at 7 months or wait for the due date, but that there will be no chance of survival,” she lamented, recalling how she was in shock, trying to compose herself. Her initial reaction was to see her pregnancy through. So she did.
“At the time, the only thing that the doctor could say was that there’s nothing they could do about it,” she explained.
For the remaining two months, she did everything to help improve her baby’s chances. She would undergo treatment to increase her amniotic fluid; she also found strength in her faith.
“At that time I knew that my baby and I could do it. Every day I’d talk to him while he was moving inside me, asking him to stay with me.”
Her husband flew back home to be by her side during the C-section.
Hours after the procedure, as Joany was recovering from the pain, she suffered another blow, as medical staff wheeled her into the NICU (neonatal intensive care unit) to say goodbye to her baby boy, who was in critical condition.
“I can’t forget that scene. As they opened the door, there I saw, my child, lifeless, I held my child, hugged him crying, I didn’t think of myself being newly operated. Everyone was quiet including the nurses, my doctors, my parents and husband, it was just my voice, my wailing,” she recalls the painful scene.
“At that time all I can remember is we were all crying. I had to let go because my baby was turning violet. I didn’t wanted to die myself, it was just so painful.”
“But after that incident I decided that I needed to be strong, and move forward,” she shared, recounting how doctors decided to do DNA testing on their deceased child and on both her and her husband.
Through this test, they diagnosed their baby with Autosomal Recessive Polycystic Kidney Disease (AKPKD).
The rare condition, which affects the kidneys and liver, happens to 1 in 55,000 pregnancies. In Joany’s case, her babies showed no symptoms until the 7th month of pregnancy, during which her amiotic fluid levels were low. To put it simply, their baby couldn’t expel or process the fluid that was supposed to nourish him because of undeveloped kidneys.
“They said that my husband and I were carriers of the disease, even though we didn’t have any symptoms and we passed this on to our baby that resulted in undeveloped kidneys,” she confided.
A few years later, Joany got pregnant again, but lost the baby after only 4 months.
Pregnant for the 4th time
In 2010, she found out she was pregnant for the fourth time.
This time around, Joany decided to go to a specialty hospital, disclosing everything to their doctor, but still holding on to their faith that this pregnancy would end happily.
Sadly, during her 7th month of pregnancy, she was told the same sad news. She gave birth to her son Zachary John in October 2010, but lost him after 24 hours.
In between these four pregnancies, she suffered two undocumented miscarriages.
“I never asked for anything, I just wanted my child to be alive when I had to bring him out in this world, be baptized and be a Christian. I thought I already accepted our fate, but when that day came, it was hard, all the pain was there, again, even worse than ever,” shared a distraught Joany.
As of this writing, there is no known cure for the rare condition that has robbed Joany and Jhong of the privilege of becoming parents.
Through her struggles to have a healthy pregnancy, Joany admits placing the blame on herself at one point.
“I was so guilty at the thought that it was all my fault, that I did not take care of my babies while they were inside me,” she confided, adding that it was a shock since she always thought she and her husband were healthy individuals.
“My husband has always been so supportive. After all these trials, he let’s me do what I want,” she said, crediting him for supporting her pursuit of being a fitness instructor.
Though she lost six children, she is still holding on to the hope that she will be a mum one day. But she is also willing to accept it if it’s just not meant to be.
“I always wanted to have kids, but if God has a bigger plan for me, so be it. I will never lose faith, and I believe that everything happens for a reason. I used to plan my future, our future, but sometimes my plan is not God’s plan for me,” she shared. “Maybe telling my story might open some doors.”
Though her experience was painful, Joany tries to help those who find themselves in a similar situation, by reaching out on social media.
“Whenever I’m reading stories of grief or loss from social media or meet a friend who suffered the loss of a child, I always say they can all talk to me if they are ready. I usually tell my story and I know in a way they feel lighter,” she said.
“Losing a child is very painful. It’s so painful that it causes you to blame yourself,” she says, adding how she chose to think the babies she lost are now in heaven, healthy and free from suffering.
She believes that the grieving process truly starts with denial, before acceptance.
“There’s no one who could help me heal but myself. It was a state of mind,” she adds. She also enrolled herself in a gym and attended group exercises. “I surrounded myself with happy people.”
“If you feel like crying, cry. But after crying get up and be the best version of you. No one will heal you except yourself, be an inspiration to others.”
Telling her story also offered much comfort.
“What I discovered was, once you tell your story with whom you are comfortable with or even to a random person, the pain will become less and less,” said Joany.
As she told her story again and again, she cried less and less.
But being healed does not mean she’s no longer affected. Each year, she shares, she remembers them on their birthdays. At Christmas, she remembers losing their first baby.
“Losing someone is like losing half of yourself. Yes we are all broken and can never be whole again, but there are still people around you who are willing to support, love and care about you.”
“Accepting takes time, tell your story, help others,” reassures Joany. “Love yourself, love others, love what you do, live your life. If you feel like crying, cry. But after crying, get up and be the best version of you. No one will heal you except yourself, be an inspiration to others. We all have problems. We all are facing different hardships, but who knows you might help someone while you heal yourself in the process.”
*This story is from our archives.
Republished with permission from theAsianparent Philippines.