I’m writing because I don’t know how to tell you how my heart is breaking. I can’t seem to find the words to describe how devastated I am that you’re pulling away from me. Each day I feel like we are drifting apart, even if I try my best to reach you, it’s just no use. Even if we see each other every day I feel like you’re not really there. It’s like you’re just going through the motions.
I am not sure if I should even be writing this before talking to you. I guess I’m just scared about how you’ll react. I’m afraid to have my suspicions confirmed, that you really no longer feel connected or satisfied with me.
I want you to know that I want to try my best to give you what you want. I want you to look at me and talk to me the way you used to. I miss seeing your smile and hearing sweet words, like when we first got married.
I thought that having a baby would bring us closer, but sadly I feel like you no longer seem as invested as I am in our future…
I thought that having a baby would bring us closer, but sadly I feel like you no longer seem as invested as I am in our future. What can I do to make you feel excited about our plans again? Please know that you can tell me anything. I won’t judge. I love you too much. Please just tell me what I can do to make you see that you will always be a priority for me.
I know it seems like motherhood has taken up the most space in my heart, but please know that you’re still the love of my life. You are the one I want to raise and build this family with. I won’t give up on us.
I admire your strength and your good heart. I am willing to go through this tough time with you because I believe in us. I believe in our love. It’s stronger than any trial. I just hope it’s strong enough to pull you back to me. I’ll always be here. I love you.
*Republished with permission from theAsianparent Philippines
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