Porn addict: a true Singapore story

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“I feel part guilt as I’m telling you my story, but no, I don’t think I’m cheating on my wife” so claims Jason, a Singapore porn addict.

“I feel part guilt as I’m telling you my story, but no, I don’t think I’m cheating on my wife, nor am I a Singapore porn addict” so claims Jason*, 33 a successful Singapore property agent who has been married for three years to Christina, a petite and attractive teacher.

Jason began his flirtations with pornography since 14 when he was in secondary school in Singapore.

“I remember secretly looking at porn magazines like Playboy which an affluent classmate would steal from his father’s stash and bring to school” recalls Jason almost fondly. He and his classmates would take turns to look at the pictures in the privacy of their classroom during recess.

This slowly grew into a craving and he used to borrow pornographic VCDs and watch in the secrecy of his bedroom. This went on long into his university days.

The Wicked Wide Web

The Internet was a dream come true with easy access to online publications and tons of free pictures and videos. Jason remembers spending hours surfing and sieving through countless pages of pornographic material on his computer.

The joys and pleasure that porn brought to him was unparalleled.

Yet, Jason was never a socially backward individual. He had his fair share of relationships and fleeting romances. “I did enjoy the company of girls and never forced my online sexual fantasies onto my sexual partners” claims Jason.

His porn addiction was his little secret.

Eventually he met Christina* and fell in love. After a courtship of two years, they tied the knot and moved into their own 5-room flat on the eastern side of Singapore.

“I never thought I had an addiction to porn and expected my porn urge to quench upon my marriage to a woman I truly loved” says Jason. Initially his secret porn habits seemed to be curbed. Jason went days without his usual porn fix.

Too enthralled by marriage life and the rigours of a new home his porn desires took a backseat, or so Jason thought. He remembers staying up late so just he could indulge in his clandestine activities. Jason was always careful to lock and make his computer password-safe. Christina never even suspected him of being a porn addict.

“The early months of my marriage was sheer bliss and our sexual relations never suffered, however, slowly the excitement and intimacy began to dwindle” says Jason.

He could not help but just wonder if this was due to his porn addiction that made him stay up at least 2 hours every night on the computer. He was gratifying himself sexually via pictures and videos on the internet.

Each night he was fantasizing and pleasuring himself to a different girl’s picture and Christina’s presence in his dark domain was simply diminishing fast.

Read on to find out from Jason did about his porn addiction

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